Feeling old but not very wise

I can’t shake the feeling that I’m just a Has Been who never actually was, just clinging to talent I used to have.
I’m too young to feel like this, dammit, too goddamn young.

I can’t shake the feeling that I’m just a wannabe. So I never claim to be an artist, I never take the title, I never brag about being talented or having once been talented, i never try, I never admit im trying, because if you’re not claiming to be one or trying to be one you’re not a wannabe because you’re not seeming to want it at all.

I don’t think there’s anything that makes me feel more helpless than wanting something I can never have but continuing to want it anyway.